If I remember correctly, I once gathered my confidence and spoke to you about my love for you. I am a lot of things but not open. At least you can now imagine what it took me for me to finally express the feelings and emotions that I had for you.
Goosebumps. Chills. I became edgy. I was overly tense after my love confession to you.
And I remember, a tremulous smile perfectly curved your lips after my confession hoping for a positive feedback from you. I remember it all. I really do.
You put me on hold. Anxiously, I waited. Little did I know that my love for you seemed trivial, to you. Shamelessly and jokingly, you brushed it off. Truth is, it did hurt.
I mourned the love I had had for you for quite some time. Difficult was what it was. I held onto the forlorn hope of my love for you as I waited for it to burn out.
I gave you the chance to revive it because I would have chose to stay if you wanted me to.
I tried, I waited.. Oh yes! I waited.
I knew it was time, for me to finally survive without you. I grew tired. I couldn’t wait for your answer anymore for it seemed to never land on my ears. For once in my life, I preferred for my heart to be broken. Your negligence to respond to my love for you indeed did cut me open to the core.
I finally chose to let go. What a sad way for me to finally let go of what I once thought could be “our start of something new”.
All buried in my memories of ‘never will be’ I decide to move on and overlook the fact that my heart once chose you. I need to settle, stress free. Life goes on and it is fine if you never believed in my love, someone else will.
And it is funny how you have never come to terms with the fact that I finally chose to move on until now.
My long wait for your response towards my love for you has suddenly become believable to you and you can’t fathom the idea that I got over you.
Truth is, time has so much passed. And your realization of my love for you is awkwardly coming out at the wrong time. Now what do you expect me to do? Guilt trip and take you back like the weak person you expect me to be or talk it out to you like the grown ass people we are hoping for you to take it in positively and calmly. Like it should be easy right?
Well, the adages;
“time waits for no man and you never know its worth until it is gone” has never hit me so bad like now. I don’t know about you but, love is a very beautiful thing however, time waits for no man. I have moved on.
Drink to that!